Can't

I don't think we have ever been in a season like this before. We are in a season of can't. It's so weird to write that. But right now, we - I - just can't. I have no capacity for anything. It was like this week hit the breaking point. My brain and energy have stopped working. But my "want to" hasn't stopped. But if you combine "want to"/"feel like you have to" when your brain and energy have stopped, its a rough place because then you cannot get any of those want to's or have to's done and you feel behind or that your missing out on something you're supposed to be doing even though you just can't right now. Or you watch everyone else do what you have been hoping/trying/wanting to do, but you just can't get it done. So then you feel like you've let God down and missed your calling and your purpose and that He's given it to someone else. But then that seems selfish/prideful and full of jealousy. 

Well that's it. That's all I got.